funeral day part 1
What the fuck does that mean? I've never been to a funeral where the dead person's family said, "oh my god, I can't believe they came--they hardly even knew my son!"
I mean really. Most people are glad so many people are at the funeral--no one really cares how or why you knew the dead person.
For me...I need the closure of a funeral. I need the pomp and circumstance, all they praise jesus he has risen indeed crap. Even if I don't believe in all of it, that's how I was raised to deal with dead people. It's almost like I don't really think or feel they're dead until I see that casket ready to be put in the ground. I need the finality of that.
I still haven't cried since I found out the news. I imagine I'm going to be a fountain at the funeral.
I'm still not sure what I'm going to wear.
Mainly, because I never want to wear it again.