sober

It seems worse this year. Seems worse than any other winter ever. I haven't been able to figure out why.

Then it hit me while driving home tonight.

I'm sober.

This is the most sober I've been in a long time so the depression is exactly what it is--depression. I have nothing to blame it on. I have nothing to obsess about because I am sober.

So sober I realize how totally shitty I feel.