twisted

I'm really trying this whole friends thing with him again. I'm trying hard to let go of any romantic ideas I have in my head. I was doing so good too until he started talking about all the crazy positions he wants to try with me next time he sees me.

This coming from a man who told me earlier in the conversation he was trying to be asexual. Hadn't even masturbated in two weeks. I really wonder how well he did last night or this morning cuz I couldn't contain myself.

Seriously. Why does he do this to me? I tried to resist. I told him to shut up, to stop talking about it, but he didn't and I didn't hang up the phone.

His soul is conflicted. His brain tells him not to be in love. His brain tells him not to be in a relationship. But at the core of his being he wants those things.

I just wish he'd hurry up and figure it out and stop twisting me in some many different ways.