you could never publish my love
After several crazy nights over the course of a couple of weeks I have decided to stop drinking for a little while. I need to be in control of my faculties and I keep doing stupid girl things whenever intoxicated. Leaving notes on ex-lover's cars and sending inappropriate text messages to inappropriate people at inappropriate times.
So, a change is in order.
I really don't know how to be in love. I find my actions purely motivated by my libido.
So, there's that.
I think I want a boyfriend, but certainly don't act like I do. I am flirt. I am an attention whore. You would think 4 years of therapy would have moved me to a better pyschological place. Granted I don't want to slit my wrists on a daily basis anymore.
So, I got that going for me.
I'm not doing what I love. I'm not doing what I am most passionate about. I am scared of failure. I am afraid of being poor.
So, what's a girl to do?